Looking Down The Barrel Of A Gun

[Bishop]

Looking down the barrel of the gun
Memories flood my mind
Happier days
Yesteryears
When things were simpler

But now as I look down the barrel of the gun
I think about the pain I’ve endured
While trying to smile on the outside
Yet crying on the inside
The Love of the Lord
So far from me
While I’m looking down the barrel of the gun

Feeling like brotha Elijah
In Biblical times
After accomplishing great feats
Ran scared when Jezebel sought his life
Sitting under a juniper tree
Begging God to take him
Looking down the barrel of the gun

Families undependable
Friends false
Hope lost
Voices in my head
Telling me
Escape is possible
Looking down the barrel of the gun

9mm single shot
cold steel
black and ominous
yet somehow sleek and seductive
filling me with power
my newfound lover
looking down the barrel of the gun

no more pain
just release
from this mortal coil of existence
as I transcend above the disappointments of life
looking down the barrel of the gun

closing my eyes
opening my mind
to the fact that this is the only way
best for all
if I fall
I look down the barrel of the gun
And pull the trig…..