I don't want to Dream

[JABOOM]

After a day lost in my usual thoughts I lay in bed and drift off away to sleep but never really deep just enough to rest but this night I was blessed

I hardly ever dream and when I do dream I want to stay a sleep to feel what I dreamt about the night before because my dreams seem to love me so

Fading of into the deepest resess of my mind I find a love a beauty that evades me in the real world
Loving her keeps me lonely because she fits my every desire and put all others in a un-winable competition

I hate to dream of her because she steals my hopes of meeting her outside of my thoughts and leaves me bitter that she is not there as I awake

I put her unearthly heaven love as my vision of what I want in my life she hurts me because she leaves me until the next night where she satisfies my fantasies yet leaves me thirsty for more

Her touches shake my inner being tightening my every muscle but escapes me leaving me unable to release my pressure within her loving vaginal embrace

I walk the world eye's wide but heart shut because she isn't there waiting for me I meet almost or so close but never her never enough to steal me from my vision of her

Dreaming of her torments me and I make judgments based on who I want her to be but hurt or reject those in front of me

Once again I sleep and once again she arrives I wish to reject her push her from my mind but I pull her ever closer losing my mind in her never there body giggling at her smile her touch her......Alarm blazing shes gone again

Why must you torture me leaving me with hopes of you never finding you only stroking you in my fantasies
Never having time to tell you I love only watching you go

My only hope is not to dream to sleep lite to think of other things busy my mind with the world but once I fall deep into ream you will return and take me away then leave me........again

I don't want to dream

I don't want to see you

But......maybe when I dream of you
You dream of me far away waiting for me psychically connected......but I don't want to dream

I want to be......with you
I need to be......with you

So even though I hate to dream I wish to dream of once again just to steal another kiss before we part and I again except our fate together and let you go then wait for your return to me so that we may love again

Still I'm tired
No more dreams
Please give me reality

But if I can only love you when I sleep I will never sleep
Because

I don't want to dream

[Muze]

awwww. this is very nice. i'm am growing more impressed by your expressions by the day!