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Originally Posted by MadameX
Sistagirl,if you want your relationship to work and everything in life to align just look in the mirror at yourself and do some reflecting and meditation. Then , you get on your knees in prayer and look up the sky and give praise to the almighty for the answer you really want lies with him.
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I am praying, but my heart is so hard so I doubt if I'm being heard and I seriously doubt my crying everyday means I've given this thing to God. As they say if you worry why pray and if you pray why worry and I'm an emotional wreck before during and after work, at home, in my car, anywhere. My dad is so worried about me and thinks I'm taking this waaaay too hard. He spoke to me 2 weeks ago and he said I sound the same-that scary calm voice with little to no emotion. I have never felt like this in my life and I've had many relationships. I don't want to get up and when I do the first thing I do is cry, It's a burden to go to work, socializing is a burden and I barely answer my phone. I am a little embarassed right now about how this thing is turning out. I think it's something worth seeking but I can't do this all by myself. He doesn't see anything wrong with how things are going now. In his mind I'm making all of the issues up because I knew he wanted to be a part of his daughters life. I am not going to give him an easy out and say "It's over". I want him to be a man and say it.