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it's true when they say, you never really know how much you'll need your mother until you become one. It's been a very difficult two years really. My mother had a heart attack and a stroke within one month of each other, so while I am married and I have a husband that is supportive, you need your mother to confide in and get guidance and support. I haven't had that because I've had to support her and help my sister. In the end she was in a lot of pain becuase of her leg and was really tired, and she had told me that she was ready along with my sister.
I had no idea that my mother's last words would be "I LOVE YOU TOO, ROBIN." I have that special moment with my mother. Her last coherent words being ones of love and support. She always felt like I didn't know that, but I knew that everyday, from the things that she said and did. Even when we didn't get along, I still loved her. I always will. So many parents and children have hard relationships and they don't appreciate each other the way they should. It's so argumentative and it really doesn't have to be.
Not just with mothers and daughters, sons and fathers...whole families really. For me, the point of arguing is just so senseless because the time you have here in this system is not guaranteed. Nothing is. It's why I no longer get in pointless arguements here anymore, or any message board I belong to, because really what's the point? You can make your point once and you've said what you've had to say, and can move on. So much of what I've done in the past is just wasted time....well no more.
I'm done beating myself over the head because people don't listen to me, or won't acknowledge what I say...I know what I said and I know it's a valid point. Something my mother, and my father taught me..as well as Jehovah God. It is okay to not win an arguement, because sometimes in that winning you've really lost....a friend, a confidant, and you may never get that back...
Thank you mom. For everything...
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