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As the semester has progressed I have still yet to meet anyone. I contribute it to my darkskin still, I try not to think skin color matters but it really does. I notice the guys seem to gravitate towards the girls who are very skinny and medium light complected/lightskin. And while I am darkskin with a very voluptous figure (big booty and big hips) they don't seem to approach me at all. You'd think that they would considering black men like women with big booties...but no it doesn't help me at all. If I do get a guy interested, he is usually much older and not my type. Like today, some older guy who looks like an ex druggie was complimenting me on my figure. I say 'thank you' and went on to class. I never get the cute guys within my age range. Never.
I made friends with a girl who is very petite, around Jada Pinkett's complexion and she already has a group of guy friend's. I also observed that other guys seem to notice her more often.
I will just accept that I am not lightskin nor will I ever get the same recognition or attention for my beauty the way they do. It's just a part of life. It's hard to deal with being that I don't want to be single anymore and I long for companionship. But it will just take me longer than all the other girls. It will take me a while to get over feeling this bitterness
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